Big pray: Chapter 5: Hope

Big Pray Chapter 5: Mystery and faith = hope

Blackbird fly

A trip to Walmart… one full of succinct messages I never expected

Ok folks. To tell you the truth, I was just going to take a pic, post on a few social platforms, and talk about how cute and helpful this blackbird was, sitting on my car as I returned with my groceries from Walmart. I took a few pics, and when I went to make a vid out of it, I noticed the blue and yellow walls in the background.

Well, what to make of this? The horror and sadness of the war in Ukraine, hits me with sadness daily and I have to limit my YouTube time because of the amount of time I will spend scanning through all reputable media for updates. So, when I go to talk about this cute bird sitting on my car, I was smacked hard with the background colors.

I’m sharing this because the blackbird totem, speaks about protection. Protect your family, your job, your home, your friends… your country. Regardless of how painful this is to me, I will continue to scan the news, and pray, pray, and pray more. Will you?

Many blessings, Sandi

Angels abound

Lent – verbal read on Desiderata

Last day of Pre-Lenten Challenge. Poem, Desiderata on YouTube, read aloud by me.

On December 17th, 2021, I began my 75-day Pre-Lenten challenge. I wrote faithfully, posts that might encourage people to do things differently prior to Lent. I’m not sure of my success. But I do know this, it was a challenge for me to write daily for 75 days, daily.

I gave myself that challenge because normally, writing has a cathartic effect on me. I, however, had not been giving myself this gift. The reason why I blog. The real question for me now, is will I keep writing, even if not daily, but most certainly often? Now, let’s move on to Lent.

The three elements of Lent: Prayer, fasting, Almsgiving.

Prayer: simply put, pray more. Pray for anything and everything. What needs healing and comes from your heart.

Fasting: Sometimes this can mean sacrificing foods for a certain length of time. Lent is celebrated for 40 days. So, we give up foods we love during Lent.

Almsgiving: I really like this one, because we are more attuned to thinking about people who might need more; those who are in need, be it money, clothes, or food. This is where maybe we go through our closets and ask ourselves if we wore the same thing during the year, or even last six months? If not, you forgot you had it. Maybe give it to charity? How about close acquaintances that you might not be in touch with regularly, but you check on them via an actual phone call, just to say hi, and how are you? I can go on, and on, with this one but I also encourage you to get creative. Also, do you have to be Christian or Catholic to celebrate Lent? While I personally can’t answer that question and not offend religions, I will only say this: I observe in my own way, even though I’m neither Catholic nor Christian. I deepen, celebrate, and appreciate my relationship with God (not just during Lent).

I welcome any ideas or thoughts on Lent from you all. Today is a beautiful day in so many ways. Thank you for sharing it with me. Many blessings, Sandi.

Pre-Lenten Challenge: day 2 You are not alone

Pre-Lenten Challenge: day 18

Be the light

A big thanks to Feliz Garcia, who has contributed today’s Pre-Lenten Challenge!

As we move around in this world that is cold, I begin to realize what is important. God’s love is what matters. I believe that we should show as much love with each person we come in contact with. It makes my day when I can make someone smile.

As we are on this journey of life, I begin to search for my life’s purpose. I believe we have been blessed with special talents. Each and every one of us has a purpose in this life. My challenge for you is to pray to God to show you what your purpose is. My purpose is to bring the light when it is dark, my inspiration from the St. Francis Prayer.

God bless you all!

Pre-Lenten Challenge: day 28 We belong to each other

Pre-Lenten Challenge: day 29

Change of heart

Extra change in my pocket: Image credit: Sandi Martinez

The division of wealthy and the poor has never been more obvious. Stats and things like that, are null and void in this entry.

I’m rewinding a bit here. To my day running errands in Espanola, NM. As all the things I needed to do made cartwheels in my head, I saw some people on the streets with signs asking for help. Money. I wondered what brought them there – to standing out in cold weather, with cardboard writing that might bring them some change. Any change.

I thought back to my own demise not so long ago. The things I don’t talk about. The things that feel shameful and confusing. Did this young person do this to himself? Did he bring on demise and suffering to his state of being in his life? His mind? His heart? I’ll say my demise was never intentional.

I made my way to the places to do the things that needed doing. Still, the young man stayed in my mind. He was at the corner of a streetlight when I first drove into town. My brain went over item by item, the errand list that needed attending. When I was done with all errands, I made my way back home, only to find the same young man on the opposite side of the streetlights. My heart didn’t think twice. My mind asked, ‘don’t you need some change?’

I said yes, but so does this guy. No, I don’t know if he’s swindling. Lying. Inspiring doubt and sympathy from all the townsfolk. As if the universe, a.k.a, God, was conspiring for this guy, the lights turned red. I had a few moments to decide if I would give him the change I would need at some point, or, if he could use it more at that moment. My heart won out. I gave him one dollar. One dollar, really? Some of you are saying, why bother? You use that dollar. This guy’s a beggar, a no-good piece of shite. Did he go to the liquor store? The drug lord wherever? As if I don’t have my own stuff to worry about, much less a young- black hooded person who needed some money – anything.

My change of heart to give this person money – had everything to do with my ability, my heart, divine guidance, and empathy. After all, it’s just change.

Wishing you many blessings’ folks. And… will you help out a fellow human in need? Change, a few bucks, or a smile and a prayer? What does it really cost to help others? Sandi.